Lazy Winter Creative

How can I do nothing? I would love to do nothing all the time. Look at the trees. Look at the rocks. These things appear pretty lazy – or are they just in a constant creative state? I’ve never considered myself a lazy person until recently. I worked hard for years and years at jobs […]

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I am an outsider. A freak. Not normal. How many people can relate to that statement? I am a piece of shit. A nobody. A loser. A loner. How many feel that one? It’s amazing the stories we tell ourselves. Who am I? What is it like to be Alan? I sometimes stop and think. […]

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Accepting my Contradictions

I own a 4X4. To some of you, I represent the worst kind of evil. To others, owning a 4X4 is a fantastic idea and many of you really won’t care either way. I spent many years living as though I hated 4X4 drivers. These cars came to be a symbol of capitalist greed, excess […]

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I’ve decided to free myself from self-imposed writing constraints for a while. It’s like I have put an expectation on myself to have to say something important and insightful. Oh no, hang on: I plan on continuing that, just in a different way, I spose. It’s a big universe out there and I have loads […]

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What are we here for? What am I for? My wife sometimes laughs when I ask this question, which usually starts with something like “Isn’t it weird, though?” She rolls her eyes. “Who are we, though? What are we doing? What’s it all about?” At that point she attempts to leave the conversation. And I […]

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Between Chaos and Rigidity

  When I worked in organic food I believed in the produce I was selling. I knew that it had come from a good place. I knew that the people who grew it had integrity and really cared about what they were doing. I still believe that to be true. Somewhere in there, though, I […]

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